Momma-isms....

I can honestly say that being a Momma of two is wonderful and also the hardest work I've ever done! I listened to all the advice and all the stories everyone told me but I really didn't realize how "number two" changes your family. I thought I would hibernate like I did with Ty, I have a little but with an active three-year old I've had to pick up and try to go just like before - just be better prepared!! (I'll never make it to Amber standards - she was at MOPS two weeks after Kate was born and didn't even skip a beat!) I still am not fabulous at taking them both out, if the three of us do go out its under two hours. I know that this too will take time and will get better but I'm dealing with a little bit of guilt as well. I feel like I'm parking Ty in front of the tv or saying "in a minute" one too many times. When do you do the laundry? If you have a plan for dinner, how do you get it cooked? Some days I start dinner at lunchtime - hoping to just get it finished by 6:00 pm! I spend the time I used to have taking care of the house spending some time with Ty and I'm just not the multi-tasker. I feel like when we start something like building our train track or working a puzzle, I'm called away. How does that make him feel inside? Am I hurting his feelings, does he understand it won't always be this way? I don't want to be SuperMom, I just want to be a good Mom. I'm finding that my heart has grown, it loves each of them with everything I have and in different ways. There's enough to go around and then around again. My relationship with my husband has changed as well, I am depending on him so much more now when before I wanted to do it all, I wanted to try to be SuperWife and SuperMom but that just can't happen now. We are working well together, when one of us needs a break the other is there to give it and I believe there is more understanding and our love is only growing stronger. My prayers haven't changed much though I'm asking for more patience. Mainly that I have patience with this three-year old and his new world. May we live through potty training and all the "NO's" he's dishing out. The time-out chair is rarely sitting empty these days. This newborn doesn't like to be patient but on some days she does and will wait (not so quietly) and I just pray that she too will understand one day, that Momma's not perfect (will never be) and that I'm doing the best I can. All I hope is that we can raise two children to be loving, respectful, obedient and all this in God's eyes. I may have a rough day here and there but I've been given a job and I try to remember that I can't lay down on the job. The rewards are everywhere and I'm still so grateful that I'm home each day to be with them. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

Here are a few pictures from the end of May of my most precious gifts.....